DESPERATE AND SCARED. Please tell me how to get help with this.?

I'm a 34yr old female - no siblings. Basiclly i'm lucky enough to have met a very speical therapist, who i've seen on and off for 19yrs, since i was 15yrs old. Bare in mind, not constant, I've had breaks of 5/6yrs in therapy and then when i encountered some difficulties i would contact her again for advice. I have enormous respect and love for her, shes just a great person and she helped me build my character and gave me encouragement in my darkest moments. My own mother (who i absolutely love) and forgive and want the best for has now had to go to institutional care. She is only 69 and physically fit and healthy but has a very disruptive mental condition where only professional nursing care can give her the attenton she needs. I live 2 hrs from her. I'm in regular contact. My father was absent all my life - with a bit of contact, i love him very much too. Anyway, I done ok for myself in life, ok job, moved away and have a very special partner - a great guy this past 10yrs. However, life has turned challenging for us. We have both lost our jobs, my mother is now in nursing home ( but not settled, which is very upsetting) and my dad has developed cardiac problems. Anyhow, as i dont have siblings or close family, dealing with my parents causes me great stress. This past 2yrs have been fierce diffiuclt. My mother has been begging me to give up my partner and life and move in with her and care for her at home. I stay with her some weekends and holidays ( all xmas) away from my partner, but even if i leave the house for one hour shes crying and rining people and throwing violent tantrums, so i couldnt do it. My father wont either but has expressed dissatisfaction that i wont live nearby. Actually they are both cold and distant and very critical of me for keeping my distance and buiding my own life. They feel i should be living near them and caring for them and marrying someone from the neigbourhood. Yet if i did, they would consume me and my mother is very very disruptive and verbally abusive. They have more or less intonated that they will leave me off their wills and not give me any inheritance. Anyhow, since this has erupted real badly, I've contacted my therapist again with the hope of building tools to be stronger and able to live with their possible abandonment. Now that my partner and i have lost our jobs, it is likely we will have to emigrate. I feel that will do it for my parents, and that they will disown me. So anyway, i'm back with my therapist. However, I find feelings developing where i wish this woman, who is so positive and lovely would love me as a daughter. I know this wont happen as its a theutic relatinship. She has other clients. I'm not the only one and I know its probably part of the service to make clients feel good. This is causing me great anxiety (these feelings) as they are taking away from what i've gone to therapy for and i'm spending days ruminating on these feelings. I really wish i didnt have them. Please note they are not ual. I just enjoy her company so much and connect on such a deep level, and i'm finding it hard to translate all this into everyday relationships now. I also feel distant from my partner and i really dont want to. I'm afraid if i discuss all this with her, she may tell me to go to another therapist, and I really, after 19years could not face this, it would really really upset me. Do you think she will be able to handle these feelings and help me work through them? I just want to express them. I dont expect her to want me as a daughter, that aint happening, i know. so far she has told me over and over that im a really special client, that i'm a unique type of person, reduced my fees, gone over 20mins in the sessions, told me i could text over xmas day if i was stressed with mum. I didnt, i always respect her space. However, I find myself, wtih these recent stresses, more and more wantign to spend more time with her and to get more encouragement from her and i really really admire her and feel a lovely energy from her. I'm just scared to tell her all this stuff. Shes 73 and winding down so i don t want to dump on her. Please advise me how i can get these feelings out there? PLEASE no lecture about how shes my therapist, not my friend, i know that. I just want to know how to tell her, thanks so much.