Is my life even worth living?

i've gone to psychologists, phychiatrists, done spirital walkabouts, Talked priests tried to accept "god" in my heart (no luck obviously, i think the mixture of me being so logical-driven and my constant bad luck made me steer the other way) and i still don't know what i'm here for... i'm only 21 and i don't know what to major in or even what am i good for, i got fired from work and haven't been able to find a job to support my family since we're almost bankrupt and in the verge of sleeping in the streets, and it's been a year since that, damn it, i've been single for a long, long time, for no reason, because i think i have good human qualities. Everyone around me is either dying, betraying my trust or just plainly and expicitly telling me that my company and/or friendship is a burden to bare and bunch of other stuff i can't mention right now, my mind is not in the right place. i seriously don't know what to do, i'm certainly not emo or any of that stupid ****, but, Is life, telling me to kill myself or something? because damn it, this went beyond what a normal human can bare a long time ago...